it will make me a thousand times happier if you dont exist.
everything felt right no matter where i go, but tourture comes whenever i stepped in.
lessons were alright yesterday. but after school TRAINING. went to 85 straight after the bell ring with liying & meris. it rained after that, & rushed back to school. my leg was numb when it comes to training, & obviously i cannot do tai tui. went to get somethings before bus-ing home.
i need to stay away from everything for now, all thanks to SOME PEOPLE. say NO to everything. obviously i didnt pon school. the pain was killing me, and my legs and hands were numb for now. & i know that lessons were boring today, esp chinese [compo]. nevermind, i still have to go to school tomorrow. ARGH!!

Firstly, i went throught all kinda things for the past few weeks.
Now when everything’s back to normal, everything comes back again.
What kinda life am I facing?
It makes me feel like a failure
I have already had enough of all this kinda nonsense
Maybe I’ll get a chance to stop all this someday
Maybe not.
After all I still get the same result no matter what I do, that’s square one.
I wana escape from all this,
And though all this are not really important, it really affects me a lot.
But they wont understand.
I get scolded, blamed when I tried to explain.
So whats the point?
I don’t get my justice no matter how hard I try.
All these seriously made me break my record of crying.
whats happening to me?
Can everything change once and for all?